Sunday, November 30, 2014

The Emergence Community Art Collective

733 Euclid St. NW
Washington, DC

  1. e·mer·gence
    1. 1.
      the process of coming into view or becoming exposed after being concealed.
      "I misjudged the timing of my emergence"
      the process of coming into being, or of becoming important or prominent.
    2. "the emergence of the environmental movement"

Taking the Leap

I like my blog being hidden, cause I don't have to worry about criticism. But when I started, my intentions weren't too keep my thoughts to myself.

So I'll stop being a little bitch and post this for others to see.

Judge me. Please.

(But not really. You don't know me!)

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Would I call it an epiphany? Nah.


I came to the realization that I'm not interested in selling my soul in order to survive. I know I might regret this in the short run, but I know I'll be alright. I'll struggle a little to have a fulfilling life. This doesn't mean rising to fame and doing extravagant things all the time. I've also learned that I enjoy simplicity. This means that I will vote to make the most of my time. I will impress me. I will make a difference somewhere doing something important. I'll live for me and only me. I hope that in the wake of my self love I inspire others to rise as well, but I don't necessarily want to help anyone else cause honestly, I can't even help me. Does that make me a bad person?

Unfortunately I've been used and abused, not in a physical way really. Although I've seen a bit of that too, but more so I've been abused mentally. My emotions are taken advantage of regularly, because I'm a woman of passion and this is known. But I need to redirect my heart to more productive activities. I'm over it. I'm not saying this is my mantra, to now be mean and heartless, but I am jaded a bit. I don't necessarily like it but it is what it is. And I feel safe. I feel so much safer that way. Is that wise? I don't know, but I'm focusing on me. I'm not wasting anymore time, because everyone lives for themselves. It's not even a secret. And this ain't even to say I'll never help anyone else, because honestly it's what I aspire to do. I aspire to be in a position in which I'm FORCED to spread the wealth. I want to be the biggest patron of the arts, and I want to increase education and knowledge for ALL. I want to break barriers and blaze trails. I want to be loved. I really do, but I don't want to forsake my own happiness, ever. I want to take the risk and find my niche for what it really is. I'll be great. I'm already greatness.