The 2nd Step

That's what's hard. Keeping up with progression. Like Larry said, making it to the top is easy, staying there is the challenge.

I've been solo for a few days now, even tho I've been in the house with my family. I come out of my cave on occasion but mostly I sit in the room and stare out the window.

I've been trying to make shapes in the clouds but I think my imagination is broken because my shapes are forced. I have to think so hard on it. I miss simplicity, but don't we all. I don't like this feeling of constant schemin, trynna make it somewhere. Unfortunately it's what I have to do to get there.

Today is my nieces birthday, and I feel like I'm coming out of this social hibernation. I have to be reintroduced to the modern world, but I'm content not being so deep in it. I don't wanna go back to Facebook or Instagram. Sidenote, I just tried to Swype Instagram and my phone didn't recognize it but Kardashian came up as a suggestion. Why is Kardashian in my phone's vocabulary and Beyoncé isn't? I'm not a die hard Beyoncé fan or anything, but those names are equally abnormal. If anything I actually talk about Beyoncé on occasion, the Kardashians don't make it into too many (if any) of my conversations, so that's just confusing as to why it's built in.

Back on track.

Where do I belong? I need a home. ASAP

Also, I've been experiencing that weird feeling again of missing something, but idk what, or who, or if it's good or bad, but it's haunting. Makes me feel incomplete ya know. I'm sitting outside of the comedy club we came to for Ray's birthday, and I wanna go somewhere, but idk where. I wanna go to love. That's my mission. To find eternal love, there I think I'd be happy. That's why I'm forever walking along by myself. I don't think anyone else would be able to help me find it ya know.

So.... I guess I'll just keep searching. In the meantime I'll enjoy the sights.