Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Thursday, January 22, 2015

#SoloDinnerDate

I'm not in a new state, but today I felt sort of, shitty. I've been so engulfed in working this minimum wage job in order to pay my dues that I've been neglecting all aspects of myself. Although, it seems to give me some sort or purpose, and I enjoy the company of my coworkers, at the end of the day it's easy money, and my coworkers are only coworkers (for now). There's no promise of a career, or friends, and low-key that's all I'm looking for honestly. I'm just a young nigga out here looking for love and money. Yes, a young NIGGA. Whatever it implies. You'd never know unless I told you however. Or maybe you would? Who cares, but it seems pretty standard right? Isn't that the goal for most of us, if not all? Aren't we all niggas in some way? But what does that even mean? Let's do some research and touch back on this topic. *rain check* Some just have a better advantage of achieving goals.

Anyways, I'm here at this restaurant in Georgetown, I-Thai, it's a nice atmosphere and this long island is one if the Best I've had, but it's just a long island. I decided to treat myself to my first happy hour, crazy I've never been. These shrimp dumplings and spring rolls are only $1.50! They're alright tho, something about the dumplings taste a little off to me. I can't quite pin it down. It has the subtle taste of an old sour rag.

Sidenote: Everyone's looking at me eat  by myself. Or the bartender is at least

I have a desire to get a little drunk and greet customers. Sorry, guests. It'll be fun for me tho. I'm realizing that paying by the book to the tee isn't all that great. I've been asking myself what the difference between a winner and a hard worker is lately, cause I'm pretty sure 2nd place works hard as well, but they don't win the gold. Why? I think there's a risk factor involved, winners push limits, take risk,work harder and don't look back. Right? So how do you meet that edge of greatness and cross from mediocrity? Take a risk, fail and fall, or not but be willing to do so.

Trust thyself.

Monday, December 1, 2014

Sunday, August 31, 2014

The 2nd Step

That's what's hard. Keeping up with progression. Like Larry said, making it to the top is easy, staying there is the challenge.
I've been solo for a few days now, even tho I've been in the house with my family. I come out of my cave on occasion but mostly I sit in the room and stare out the window.
I've been trying to make shapes in the clouds but I think my imagination is broken because my shapes are forced. I have to think so hard on it. I miss simplicity, but don't we all. I don't like this feeling of constant schemin, trynna make it somewhere. Unfortunately it's what I have to do to get there.
Today is my nieces birthday, and I feel like I'm coming out of this social hibernation. I have to be reintroduced to the modern world, but I'm content not being so deep in it. I don't wanna go back to Facebook or Instagram. Sidenote, I just tried to Swype Instagram and my phone didn't recognize it but Kardashian came up as a suggestion. Why is Kardashian in my phone's vocabulary and Beyoncé isn't? I'm not a die hard Beyoncé fan or anything, but those names are equally abnormal. If anything I actually talk about Beyoncé on occasion, the Kardashians don't make it into too many (if any) of my conversations, so that's just confusing as to why it's built in.
Back on track.
Where do I belong? I need a home. ASAP
Also, I've been experiencing that weird feeling again of missing something, but idk what, or who, or if it's good or bad, but it's haunting. Makes me feel incomplete ya know. I'm sitting outside of the comedy club we came to for Ray's birthday, and I wanna go somewhere, but idk where. I wanna go to love. That's my mission. To find eternal love, there I think I'd be happy. That's why I'm forever walking along by myself. I don't think anyone else would be able to help me find it ya know.
So.... I guess I'll just keep searching. In the meantime I'll enjoy the sights.